Not Your Everyday Cheese Just a small town girl in a great big world.

Well, I’ve spent the last couple of weeks in a drug filled haze.  Anyone who says that rotator cuff surgery is easy is a damn liar. It’s just that simple.  I’ve learned that you simply have no idea how much you use the muscles attached to your shoulder and don’t even realize it until they’ve been sliced n diced and pieced back together.  Then add the nerve pain, muscle spasms and twitching… oh yeah lots of fun!  NOT!

I have managed in the last two weeks to learn how to shower with one hand, wipe my arse with my less dominant hand, feed and half way dress myself.  I still can’t manage to tie my sneakers. Damn the bad luck… thank God for Crocs and house shoes.   I have been blessed with a loving and helpful husband and my sister has been priceless in helping me too.  I could not have made it through this without their love, support and helping hands.

I’ve come to the conclusion that should this ever happen to me again, I’ll simply live with the pain rather than have surgery.  It’s just not worth it.

Much love… Brie

So in the midst of these last two moves, I’ve managed to jack my left shoulder up.  What I thought was a pulled muscle has ended up being a really tore up rotator cuff. MRI shows one complete tear, two full thickness partial tears and a bone that is putting pressure on the cuff.  So I’ve been on pain meds for almost three weeks, now on Demerol while waiting for surgery.  That day has finally come… or will come, tomorrow.

I had a terrible dream that I woke up in recovery with my left leg amputated.  So I’m all squigged out that they are going to cut my freaking leg off.  I am going to write “wrong one” on both my legs tomorrow. I’ve been praying that God guide the hands of Dr. Kowalski and make sure that he’s sober and clear headed by the time I’m rolled into surgery.

Nothing to eat or drink after midnight tonight, shower with anti-bacterial soap in the morning and be at the surgery center at 1:30pm, surgery at 3pm. Wish me luck!

~Brie~